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[morgan_dhu]

Recently I've been going through a rather deep and dark existential depression that results from my response to being pretty much completely lacking in mobility. As this plaint that I posted on Facebook a few days back during an acute attack indicates, I feel pretty damned useless in all things.

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Losing my identities
I used to be a lot of things.
I used to be a person who sang, who danced, who played guitar, who drew and painted stuff. I used to be someone who acted in plays, who stage-managed and even did some directing.
I used to be a person who marched in protest and in celebration, who spoke at public meetings and presented briefs. I used to be a person who was active in political movements. I used to be a person who could do things to help make the world a little bit better.
I used to be a person who could work, whether it was with my hands or with my mind. Who could be productive, support myself and the people I loved.
I used to be a person who could be of use to my friends and loved ones, who could actually be a friend to them, a person to turn to, to rely on. I used to have something to give.
I used to make a difference in the world.
There are so many things I used to be, and am not not now, and likely will never be again.
Take all my identities away from me, and what is left? Nothing.
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Well, in an attempt to try to change at least one of these "I used to be"s, I have been playing with a program that is supposed to be a way to make pixel art rather than hand-shaped art. Here are a few of my investigative forays into the world of electronic art.

Comments

[wild_irises]

These are lovely! I especially like the middle one.

I have two suggestions: I hope they are welcome.

First, master artist Mark Ferrari (I would call him a master, he would not) lost the ability to draw on paper several years ago, due to an accident that messed him up neurologically. His current work is at least as good as his previous colored pencil work.

Second, my friend light_of_summer is participating in November Is Art Every Day Month, as she has for a couple of years. You might enjoy it.

I wish you much luck and much hope

[morgan_dhu]

I looked at Ferrari's site and his digital work is lovely.

One of the limitations I'm working with is that because I'm pretty much confined to bed, I'm using an ipad and the tiny screen makes detailed work difficult. But even if I do not manage to replicatr some of the styles I used to be able to work in, it's still fun to mske art.

It might be a bit of a push for me to mske something every day, but I do like the idea of november every Day is Art - in fact, a few years ago, I responded to the NaNoWriMo buzz by drawing something every day - you can see the hand-drawn things I did back then by checking out my "art" tag. So I'll draw as much as @i can and post a few more things this month.

Thank you for your ideas.

[lavendertook]

I like the middle one, too.

You are still an artist and writer, and through those can still do activism and making a difference in the world. And save the lives of people you interact with, even online. I don't know where I'd be without the support I've gotten through my friends online. You are not finished yet, bb. <3 *hugs if acceptable*